Rite. Write. Right.

I read an article in Newsweek about a 42-year-old woman, Jill Price, who can remember every single day of her life since she was 8. Give her a random date and she will recall exactly what she was doing that day including what she ate, how the weather was and what happened to her. Mind you, she is not a fake as researchers have cross-checked her life with her personal journals, weather reports and newspapers and whatever she said is parallel with all those records. Amazing huh?

On one hand, it is cool to have that kind of ability. Nobody can ever argue with you. You will always know the truth as you will remember every word you say and every word everyone else says around you or to you. On the other hand, the inability to forget is painful too. You will always remember the worst day of your life in detail, every stupid mistake you make and every word someone says to hurt you. And Price also said, this ability was not helpful to her when she was a teenanger. Arguing with her parents was very difficult and a lot of times, it put her in hot water. Imagine, how in the world do we tell our parents that they are absolutely wrong and we are right? Talk about the impossible! Haha.

But isn’t it nice to have a selective memory? To just remember what we want to remember and delete the things we dreadfully want to forget. I, for one have a lot of things I want to forget and not to mention, all the people I wish I have never met. Haha.

Life is full of uncertainties. There are only two certainties in life: death and the fact that everything in life is uncertain.

Like my life right now…

Malas nak fikirkan semua benda-benda yang berkecamuk dalam fikiran saya ini tapi saya tahu saya tidak boleh dan tidak mampu untuk lari. Semuanya melibatkan masa depan saya. Hendak atau tidak bukan menjadi persoalan. Yang menjadi persoalan ialah bolehkan saya menghadapi semua cabaran ini sekiranya Allah ingin menguji saya? Bolehkan saya melalui kekecewaan lagi? Bolehkah saya menerima apa yang Dia bakal berikan kepada saya sekiranya apa yang bakal terjadi bukan seperti yang saya harap dan impikan?

Sebenarnya, sejujurnya, sesungguhnya, seikhlasnya… SAYA SANGAT TAKUT…

Sometimes it is better to just let things be the way they are - no need to plan, no need to worry - and just be thankful with who we are and what we have - right here, right now. No need to be cocky or overflow ourselves with self-pity.

Whatever that is bound to happen will happen anyway… it is just the matter of when and where.

Que sera sera…

At the office, reading and marking essays… and I am dreaming about last weekend at Port Dickson.

How I wish I could jump in that amazing pool which overlooks the sea.

How I wish I could lie on the couch in front of the tv with my dear friends, laughing at whatever is on air.

How I wish I could just talk and talk and talk with my buddies by the pool, at the beach.

How I wish I could have a life where there is nothing to do except hang out.

How I wish I could roam the sea on a jet ski.

How I wish I could wake up in the morning greeted by the sound of the waves.

This is to say… PD was FUN! I mean, we didn’t do anything much except hanging around and I was in the pool most of the time. But just having my babes around was already so much fun. Nothing beats hanging out with your close friends and pretending to be carefree, spoilt, rich girls without a care in the world. (Note the word ‘pretending’ – haha). I think all of us were actually thinking of marrying rich men so that we can have that kind of lifestyle. Haha. What wishful thinking.

Asma’, Syima, Mar, Kerun, Khai – thanks for a lovely time last weekend. We should do this more often before one of us decides to get hitch. Hehe. Next major destination: Phuket 2009! Get ready, babes!